And just when I thought that God has realized how much I have suffered and my peace of mind was finally reestablishing itself..........
RIP Denise Lee, August 6, 2013
Can you even begin to imagine the pain i'm feeling? You never know how much you want to talk to someone until the space they were occupying in your life is empty. No one knew me the way she did nor understood me...maybe my mother does a little bit but that's about it. Takes about 5 years to crack this nut and I think she successfully did it in 2.
The tears aren't pouring as I expected. Time after time I used to think what I would do if something was to happen to my oreo (i'm the cream). We would sit and joke about it saying that when we were living together (she would put me up since she knew i would be forever alone), we would sit and watch sex and the city reruns and run a golden age home for rich old men.
Her imagination was out of this world not to mention those facial expressions..she invented them all. She was my joy and I was her backbone...who needs a better friendship than that? I was selfish with her, I must admit. Sharing her was the hardest thing I ever had to do especially with someone who made her start to lose herself.
I sometimes question God as to why this has happened so soon because we know that death is inevitable but I'm thrilled that she left a piece of her with us...2 beautiful pieces actually, Anna and Ayana. Sooooo..what's next for me? I have to move on from this...put a smile on my face and pretend. It's gonna be really hard since almost everything I watch or listen reminds me of her.
To the one who can never be replaced...sleep well..u been asking for the rest for about 2 years now. I'll try not to jump in the hole when they are putting u down there nor allow Faith to. You will never be forgotten!
